Friday, May 7, 2010
They say not knowing is the hardest part of a situation and in my case I have to agree. I had to take my 6 month old baby girl to Children's Hospital of Central California yesterday for a hip x-ray. The creases in her legs are asymmetric. In other words, her fat rolls don't match. Of course I had to do some research on the internet to see what the problem could be and what kind of treatment might be indicated. Bad idea. The asymmetry of her creases could mean that she has hip dysplasia. Seeing that my baby girl could possibly need surgery under general anesthesiology and then a spica cast from her chest to below her knees has affected me immensely. I have had a range of emotions thinking about her little body going into surgery or trying to cuddle my lovable baby covered in plaster and what her reaction will be to her loss of mobility. I had a glass of wine last night, okay two glasses. When I woke up at 2:30 my mind was buzzing and I was not able to go back to sleep. I've just been looking at her, kissing on her, and cuddling her as much as possible. The nurse at our pediatrician's office said she wouldn't expect the films back before this afternoon and she would call me when they come in. I hope to get some sort of answer before the weekend because this not knowing is killing me.